"I still catch myself feeling sad for things that don't matter anymore."

Sometimes you just need a partner who's straightforward and realistic to calm your angry stubborn self.
But how do you not get overwhelmed when you're told to pay 6,895 as soon as you get home from a miserable day at work? 107 a month. It'll take me 5 years to pay it off and at that rate I'll prolly still be paying for my diploma after getting married.

At times, I wished I was a little far from what my life is right now. Seeing my friends having the freedom to take up a degree course, with no worries about the cost, and yet they complain about it is beyond my comprehension. When have I not worked hard just to get the simplest things that comes to most people? Like food and nice clothes and license and just monthly allowance? Or when was the last time I had allowance? Decades ago.

I know it sounds ungrateful but there's just so much I can tank before I really just explode. And today is the day.

"Try saying Alhamdulillah when you’re confused, when you lose something, when you’re stressed, when you’re broken or beat, when you fear, when you lose hope, when your heart breaks… Praise the Almighty because if He raises you, nothing can bring you down."