preparations
Monday, 22 September 2014 @ 12:38 | 0 individual(s)
How many days has it been? I have no idea.
I'm starting to give up. It gets so frustrating you know?
I know I'm pulling us back from our plans.. but really I'm trying my best too.
We've been arguing a lot recently too. And I know I'm to blame. I think I was more angry with myself than anything else. I didn't mean to distance myself, I just felt like keeping quiet wouldn't stir anything up. Though it was more of the opposite wasn't it? I almost drove you away.
I'm starting to give up. It gets so frustrating you know?
I know I'm pulling us back from our plans.. but really I'm trying my best too.
We've been arguing a lot recently too. And I know I'm to blame. I think I was more angry with myself than anything else. I didn't mean to distance myself, I just felt like keeping quiet wouldn't stir anything up. Though it was more of the opposite wasn't it? I almost drove you away.
Alhamdulilah, we managed the 2 days course. I wouldn't say I learnt a lot from the this (we were here for the certificate in the first place right) but it still enlightens me. One thing's for sure, spiritually I'm nowhere close to ready and I really need to improve on that.
Thank you for attending it with me. I know my situation right now doesn't suffice or help us in getting to our new journey but In sha Allah things will work out.
I love you and I wanna start our journey together in the right way so we can achieve what we truly want in our next life together. Amin.
xx.
