I've been a fan of Tasha Shila for a while now cause I think she's really pretty and I admire her acting. Thus, I came across her drama aired on merdeka day for Malaysia called Nasi Air. (Faizal Hussein and Zahiril Adzim was in it too so I thought it should be good.) And it was.

Specifically, it hit right home.

The drama tells about a father (Faizal Hussein) looking for his daughter (Tasha Shilla) with the help of his godson (Zahiril Adzim), who later falls in love with his daughter. It tells of a strained relationship of a father and a daughter after 20 years of separation. It tells of forgiving him and accepting his past mistakes. It also tells of the love of a father and what he is willing to sacrifice for his daughter's happiness.

Undoubtedly, I teared up while watching.

As said, it hit right home. I remembered the first phonecall I had with him after 5 years. It was at night, and I was just 14 years old then. I couldn't remember exactly how I felt then but it was somewhat emotional and unstable I assume. Though I do remember of a bit of the conversation we had, it was him being proud of me for achieving the best PSLE result amongst my siblings. For getting into a good school, and for getting into Express stream and a good class. He was so proud. I remembered he kept telling me that he knew I'll be the best one and I was the one to make him proud. I had a really close relationship with him when I was smaller, closer than any of my other siblings, I was (and still am) his favourite child so naturally I teared up hearing what I made him feel. Being praised like that after years of telling myself I had done well, was really emotional for me.

Though our relationship is strained, I know he still has that love for me, and I too for him. My brothers may not be as open about it as me, but I'm sure they feel the same way. He's our dad after all. The one who used to put me to sleep at night and take care of me when I was sick. That same man.

xx.